Hey,been busy occupying myself with casual chatting here and there. kinda failed on r/s wise,but oh well, if that's the case,i'm giving up from there and i've got to move on. Studying and getting good grades are my top priorities,plus oh well.. earning more money for me to splurge splurge splurge.:) The reason why i'm blogging today cause finally, i've known where to put the barrier across other guys. Though it was an unhappy ending, but i'm glad still. Though deep down,i really wish that you could still give me a chance, but i know, i've took advantage of everything. Thus i wish you the best, and still hoping for a tiny hope we'll get back together. Certainly, i've experienced whatever shits i gave you through another person. And i sincerely am very sorry about it. After tmr, or more like, after you've given me the answer( which is a no), i will move on from there. Hope you can move on happily, and i wish you the best,:) With this i end everything. Nights all..
complexity simplified
Elegance is...
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
I hate you,and you and you and you. But what am i going to do,i deserved all of these from the start. I brought it all upon me. what am i supposed to do? i'm really going in a direction where no aims and recklessness are rampant. Just going to let it rest for a while,i need a break. i really do need one soon. i need myself back, the old self, whereby no worries worry me, whereby no affairs of the heart can tug at my emotions, whereby everything is just me and my thoughts of the day. I love no one now, not anymore.
complexity simplified
Elegance is...
Monday, May 30, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
First of all,i've came to know about my mistake an hour ago. Thanks to kahsin,my babe.She told me about my dad's blog and how heartbreaking it is. I really want to say i am very sorry daddy,mummy.. I think only for myself, solely for myself. Ever since the start of polytechnic, or maybe way before that, i was rebellious. Very in fact, i don't listen to whatever you two always say, and i know only to live for myself. To have changed to becoming selfish, ignorant of your words. I regretted all of these, and though you don't see me cry, i am really apologetic. I promise to change for the better,i will try my best and give you my word. Sorry daddy,mummy.
your heartless daughter.
complexity simplified
Elegance is...
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Saturday, April 09, 2011
Hey all,felt like blogging so yup.:) headed out to west coast with esther,talk lots of cock and stuffs. met charmaine,one of the blogshop owners there,haha. had a bad day,pretty much involving my loved one,so yep.. not a perfect 1 year anniversary but oh well,what to do with his competition coming up and all. Kinda disappointed in him after being hit by some unwanted news,yeah.. hope i can really put everything down after this and get on with my life i want. toodles people.
i regretted.
complexity simplified
Elegance is...
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Hey people. Back once again to blog,seems pretty long since i last touched this space here. Was pretty upset these few days or so. Kinda unstable now between me and him. so yeah,i can prepare to head back to my single life soon i guess. whenever trouble sparks,it's always me. From hating to giving in,to learning to giving in and starting to giving in. Though it's troublesome and tiresome,i learned. Though i felt inferior compared to other womens out there, i comforted myself silently. Whenever there's no one to turn to,i hid behind those walls and cry everything out. Thereafter,step by step,i've learned how to let go of things easily. People are superficial in life,so don't blame others. Don't even blame me. Tired of these shits.
Those words you've said and those actions you showed. It was so hurtful,till i can bear it no longer. i'm numb now.
complexity simplified
Elegance is...
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
hi all,pretty tired now,gonna head to smoke then sleep soon. not feeling happy ,just feeling grumpy that's why i'm here. my stomach feels weird too,oh well. hope i can scrape through tmr's test. gonna bake cake tmr for reunion dinner. nights all..
it will never occur to you, why am i not your priority, why am i not what you want, what are we suppose to look forward to, what's gonna run us down again and again, and we have to keep repeating the cycle by picking ourselves up non-stop. tell me,what's more to life.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Hey everybody. kinda feeling a little high now,shall post a little. sorry for all the hurtful words i've said. i know you've meant good,but i just don't know why i can't bring myself to trust you much anymore. maybe ever since, we broke up,i've lost confidence in everything. trust too..oh well,went drinking with my boy and senior,quarreled with my boy,damn sian.. gonna head to bed soon,nights all.
